Mummy of 3!

Being a mother of 3, I'm fully convinced that I will never be the perfect or even a super mum. I have my baggages, my inadequacies, my weaknesses, my immense fear, my challenges that I need to overcome daily. But I have given my best shot in this mothering role since day 1, making sacrifices and challenging myself to overcome my own baggages and difficulties. Likewise, I strongly believe my parents have give them best shot in my childhood. They are not perfect either, yet they gave the best they could. Just like what my innocent children claimed that I'm the best mum in the world , I chuckled in my heart how naive they can be. I wish could be as cool as some mummies, or as patient as that mummy down the street, or even as capable as a working mum who handles work and family so well. These endless comparison is only going to make me miserable. I learn that just being the real me, giving my best and creating intentional memories for my family is what I need to do for

I made up my mind before I left for our family Hong Kong trip 2012

I choose sanity this holiday in Hong Kong. I know it will never be a perfect trip, there will be the usual meltdowns , whinnings , inconveniences and hiccups. But we can still enjoy this long awaited trip there. The children are excited and I need to just let my hair down and just have fun with the kids! There are beautiful memories to be created there as a family! Who cares if they are messy , who cares if they are not wearing matching scarfs, hats and jeans... Who cares if we miss the ride, who cares if they whines, I must make a choice to be HAPPY and shake the unhappy moments quickly and return to my 'ready to have fun' mode!!!

Treasure TODAY!!

Sometimes we plan so much about giving our loved ones a better this and that..... Thinking those "things" are the best for them. So we slog, we plan, we give our most precious time away to build the "dream" gift. Then, we are left with little energy everyday for them and soon years go by subtly.......Children grow up faster than we think, our parents grow older sooner than we imagine and by the time we are ready...... Our loved ones do not need it anymore. They do not need extravagant possessions, whatever we "thought" will give them happiness, they just need our undivided attention, our little time and unconditional love. ;)

I'm RICH!!!!

AYO I'M SO RICH!!! Though I can't 'afford (at the moment) my dreams holidays in Europe ; Though I don't stay in a big house ( will be one in heaven); Though I don't wear stylish power suits and carry a branded handbag; Though I don't dine fine cuisine ; Though I don't have a domestic helper and have to 'double' up my roles as tutor, chauffeur, nurse, accountant, financial planner, chef, play therapist...... I REALLY feel so rich !!! I have a doting and responsible husband who makes an effort to buy my favorite Ang ku Kueh; I have 3 beautiful and healthy children who never fail to hug me endlessly and draw me innocent pictures of love and beauty; I have a very encouraging and thoughtful father is always there for me, who just bought my favorite dried mangoes; I have a quiet ( don't nag at me) but very fervent mother who prays for our family earnestly ! Most importantly, I know My Heavenly Father loves me so much that no matter how bad a situation can be, He can make all perceivable bad situations turn GOOD!!!

Happy mummy's Day!

Being a homemaker has many frustrations and pain. Work that is often unnoticed and unappreciated . But when it is not done, they look especially glaring and uncompleted. This work lacks social and intellectual stimulation and u feel so small in many people eyes.....so unproductive. Yet it is often seen as a tai tai's job. The truth is it is often hard to find someone to join you for a proper meal to unwind, or someone to hear your woes or joy! Most of the time, there is no pay and no leave, dun even mention MC or career advancement. There are tons of same routine work to be completed, and to answer SOS cries. If they are unanswered, sometimes u hear ugly words or behavior that hurt u more than anything in the world. Why , just because it is from your loved ones. It seems more painful..... This mundane work makes u feel demented when u can't remember the dates. .... U dun hear appraisals like well done for folding the clothes, washing the same plates again and again , going to sheng song n carry bags of groceries m blah blah....It is seen as if fairy godmother has done all these jobs, food bought by her and cooked by this magical person. When u see something that u covet, u realized u have no purchasing power. U feel guilty for spending on WANTS and tries to justify them as needs. When u want to buy luxury stuff for your parents , u think twice because budget is tight and Shi fang money is low..... Then u are intimidated by other homemakers or even working mums whose children excel in these n that.... N u wonder what have u been doing..... Again, it is a personal choice. There are pros and cons , and is not that green on the side of of the pasture.

It only takes a spark, to get the fire going....

Mummy is super proud of you guys today! Gabriel and Venecia, I dun think u actually saw how both of you had positively influenced the whole group. When both of you started picking up the toys and cleaning up at that messy playroom, all the other children followed your good example! The playroom literally transformed! It is amazing that it only takes a spark, to get the fire going !!

My very own poem!!

Wipe your uncontrollable tear, there is nothing to fear, With God at your side, we have only Hope to hide; With His Favor and unceasing Grace, His love that we can trace; With Joy that abound, Unbelievable Strength that can be found; For His Wisdom is far beyond our comprehension; And only with small Faith , it can cease this inner tension. GML