Sibling rivalry

Wow, I can't believe this sibling rivalry is starting so soon. I guess their small age gap is causing this impending bickers. My dear ah boy, Gabriel was only 10 months when he first started snatching his jie jie's toys. Of course, my cheeky second born, Venecia is NOT ready to give in. Venecia is facing a strong jealousy here and apparently it is quite serious cos she actually dreamt about her didi snatching her toys!!! The typical scene would be....She will run away with whatever she is holding if she sensed her didi is interested too. In fact, she will throw it at places that will be impossible for didi to reach. Her famous line is " NO DIDI, SHARE!" and she runs away with that coveted toy. Ah ya, if not she will say, "NO!!!! didi DIRTY!" and takes away the toy defensively!!!!! Didi will immediately yell to get HELP!!! So if u were to call me ..... u will hear all these commotion!

HEY my immediate task is to teach BOTH of them CONFLICT RESOLUTION!!!!

Marriage Vow

We have just celebrated our Actual wedding anniversary on the 24th July. Though it wasn't as great as the Banyan tree resort retreat, I truly enjoyed it especially the late movie and supper. It wasn't a romantic candle nite dinner but a BBQ stingray, shellfish, and craypot frog legs at a coffee shop. Yet, it was special to me..... cos I enjoyed this kind of dating again.

Then, it was time for me to reflect on this day about my vow when we went back to Chijmes, the place where we exchanged our vows 10 years ago. I vowed to love him for better AND for worse, for richer and for poorer. I realised my love for him has been quite shallow for this past 10 long years. I seem to love him more only when skies are blue and storms are away. I demand, I shout, I pout, I cry, when he doesn't reach so called my mark. I dun really understood my vow.

I strongly believe that marriage requires alot of hard work, time, and money. We need to invest in this relationship to make it work and I know I need to start from my ATTITUDE, back to the beginning of what I have promised him. To love him for better AND for WORSE. This marriage building is a lifelong process and we will never be on the same scale all the time. We are changing everyday as partners and for both of us to strike a balance requires serious commitment and GRACE. Moreover, we are experiencing many life stages with different mindsets and readiness. Parenthood is one of them that has definetly knocked us off the equalibrium scale. We are learning to juggle this dual role as lover and parent at the same time. It takes time to learn, and the key is willingness to make adjustments to still make time for one another. We have to continue to date and enjoy each other's company. What I really hate most is to live like roommates under one roof......

May this 10th year anniversary remind us that we did well for the past decade and there will be more hiccups on the way before we celebrate the next 10 year anniversay. Let us be realistic and learn to be more accomodative to each others' effort to love one another.

God please teach me to be a Godly wife who will cheer and love my dear ah -lao at ALL TIMES!!!

Downdown East celebration

Cheeky Venecia turned TWO!

My dearest Venecia is very special to me because God has graciously given me this beautiful girl. God has answered my sobbings when I miscarriaged twice in Shanghai. I prayed, in fact begged God in my pool of tears to give me another Child. I weeped and literally fell onto my knees when I couldn't contain that immense pain in me. I believed God heard me then....cos I felt so peaceful after leaving my pain and questions with Him. I knew I can't ask why, but trust that He knows what is the best for me.Thank God that I conceived Venecia three months after my last miscarriage and but was swept with this irrational fear of losing her. I was paranoid, scared and uptight.... somehow, that unfounded fear came back again when she had fluctuating high fever during her HFMD episode. She is already so small in built that she looked absolutely pitiful when she was so sick. I was afraid of losing this girl......

This event reminds me that I need to treasure every moment with her, even her whinnings. I know time flies so quickly that I will miss these times. Now she has turned two and somehow I feel these two years just had flown in just one blink. NOW, my dear mei mei is back to her usual cheeky self.... she will suddenly screamed "STOP" at me when I'm nagging at her. I can't hide my laughter even when she challenegd me. I learned to laugh more than to be angry over the little inevitable irritations of nurturing this cheeky peanut.

My 3 little pigs had HFMD

When all my three children succumbed to this UNWELCOMED HFMD recently..... we were bombarded with high fever, mouth ulcers, crankiness, poor appetite, sleepless nites. As a homemaker, I was really exhausted after fighting this war days and nites, and seeing their PD so many times. Their adamant refusal to eat, incessant whinings, outburst of sudden anger were SO legitimate that I couldn't blame them for frustrating me. But yet there was this brimming inpatience, and anger escalating in me. Somehow the little few hours breaks or retreats do not do the trick. I was still mentally tired for a long long time...... In fact, I was still quite disorientated when we finally went for Venecia's birthday celebration at Downtown East chalet after winning this WAR! Yes, I nearly packed a my entire house there just for a NIGHT! hee hee this kiasu mummy is constantly untight abt everything! NO more Hssssss pls, esp H1N1!!!