My blessings

I learn to count my blessings when I'm wallowing in self-pity. This gives me a better perspective and positive attitude to face my difficulties.

Mighty to Save

I love this song as it gives me great comfort and encouragement.

Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour He can move the mountains

My God is mighty to save
Forever Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine Your light and
Let the whole world see
We're singing
For the glory of the risen king
Jesus
Shine Your light and
Let the whole world see
We're singing
For the glory of the risen King

Our heartache - Princess Venecia

Our dear Venecia has been turning this house upside down lately. Most of you would know that she screams frantically in the middle of the nights since day 1. Somehow it has not improved much and her PDs and neurologist had urged us to get a MRI done to see what's wrong with her brain. I must admit that I REALLY thank God that she is fine except that this recent MRI is doing a harvoc in her. She is EVEN more cranky, fussy and hard to pacify especially at night. We did not sleep for two nights in a row since her MRI and we are at lost with her screaming at the top of her lungs. Her sleep terror is a TERROR to us and sad to say, our poor neighbours. We are really helpless and extremely exhausted...... so please do pray for us to have enough patience to get by and that GOD will heal her and grant her peaceful sleeps.

Yes, I have been so angry with her as she has worsened my nightmare since my helper left. I pray that God will give me the grace, wisdom to react during her non-stop screaming display and I will learn to step back when I face uncontrollable anger myself.

" A fool gives vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control." proverbs 29:11

My 10 effective ways to DEstress lately

1. Have short coffee breaks infront of my toddlers.
2. Take long hot shower
3. Write my prayer journal - trust that God will MAKE a WAY
4. Put on a smile
5. Take ONE day at a time
6. Sob when I reached my limit
7. Watch my Hongkong drama series
8. Nap whenever I can with my son. A sleep deprived mum snaps easily!!!
9. Laugh at my own stupid acts, not to be too hard on myself and others, esp toddlers
10. Eat cos a hungry mum is a scary mum

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest luke 12:25-26

Sanity and salvation intact? 2010 resolution?

Yes.........finally after so many months of MIA, this mummy is back. I was so busy with the renovation, moving and adjusting that I was too tired to blog. But I'm back not with pictures of my darlings at this moment. Please let me lament about my recent stress that I'm facing. I'm without a helper again and the perpetual washing, cleaning, feeding, resolving conflicts, enduring two toddlers struggling with immense stranger anxiety and sibling jealousy have been driving me nuts. There were so many times that I asked "how long more?" Is it 9pm already?

Yesterday, I just found extreme comfort when my dearest Valerie gave me the longest hug that I ever needed. My tears just flowed. I was trying to hold all together and her empathy somehow sensed that mummy needed some encouragemnet. She praised my cooking and that really eased all the "pain" away.

I'm rereading this book that I read 6 years ago!!!! Mommy's locked in the bathroom by Cynthia Sumner. This book saved my sanity when my firstborn was so colicky and had bowel diffculties then. Now, I needed it ever more since I'm struggling with 3 children. I need to get my perspective back in order to survive this motherhood. According to Cynthia, "An acquired skilled in mothering is the ABILITY TO GO OVER THE TOP EVEN WHEN YOUR UPPER LIMIT HAS BEEN REACHED."

Please pray for this mummy to overcome my children early years and may God grant me ever more strength, hope, love, creativity, joy and heaps of patience in this tough mothering journey. May I learn to let go the inevitable irritations and learn to laugh with them. while raising them.

" Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will giveyou rest." Matthew 11:28-29