So many times I just lose it, the whining, the complaining and poor attitude usually trigger my button. It brews a very toxic mixture inside me and suddenly it will just explode on an autopilot frantic reaction: ugly yelling, regrettable words that stab and escalating anger stares .
Then I will be so overwhelmed with guilt and sadness after each episode and feel extremely defeated. I will be very angry with myself for losing it again as I thought I promise myself each day, I will have better self control and patience....
So today, I'm frighten to start afresh, and praying fervently that the short half time break will jump start and put me on another fresh new page. I hate that vicious cycle. I want to start with the positive and affirming footing. Lord, only u can help me to be kind and mirror the right attitude and peace in this chaotic world of pressure. I trust that I will be led by the spirit and be changed divinely. Pray for me! 🙏🏻
