Have u ever felt like a lousy mummy???? I have this provoking thought many times and always questioned myself about my choice of staying home to take care of my children. However, I know deep down in my heart that I need to invest in their formative years, especially the first five years and I can work as long as I like till I drop......when they are schooling. My education and training in Child Development have strongly affirmed my belief that children need attentive caregivers to provide their NOT only their physical but emotional, cognitive and social needs. Yet....I felt so inadequate now. I feel so drained, I felt so unaccomplished, so tired, so helpless.....my body's hormones and changes are making me worse. I can't it....
I know I can OVERCOME! BUT how???? I used to give myself my so-called self-declared deserved time-outs like my favourite coffee club breakfast....suddenly, it doesn't help anymore. It seems lonely and sad affair that interestingly people think u are having a great time, like tai tai..... ya ya....I wish I have somebody to talk to..
Motherhood seems so easy for some, yet so insurmountable for me. I feel so useless for not able to take all these care giving and house chores. I know my battery is running low now and my emotions are fluctuating like roller coaster. I know I have to do something about myself.......
Meanwhile pray for me that I will stand up strong again for my kids!
cheers meiling
