Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
My 13 month old baby......
Sometimes I do wonder IF I have ENOUGH love for my children.
HER spontaneous smiles and innocent actions definitely melt my doubts away......
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HER spontaneous smiles and innocent actions definitely melt my doubts away......
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Saturday, August 2, 2008
siblings
As my due date draws near, I'm alittle apprehensive about my ability to cope with three, esp with all three below 5 and of which 2 are still babies! However, I feel alittle more consoled when I see how my two girls play together and how much joy they actually bring into our lives. Somehow, I'm stronger each day to face this "insurmountable" task and will just simply TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME to enjoy the rudimentary chores of child rearing!
Friday, August 1, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Our long awaited Australia trip, March 2008
My family has just returned from our 2 weeks vacation in Australia. I muz say it was really a mixture of feelings; exhaustion cum stress cum excitment.....
Can u imagine my eldest daughter actually contracted chicken pox just the second day when we arrived Aust. My stress level was escalating especially when my 9 mths old mth pumpkin wasn't vaccinated and I am currently pregnant. I remember vividly from my childlife internship in Canada how a poor baby suffered and abandoned in the hospital with almost all her major systems down just bec her mummy had chicken pox during pregnancy. That thought scared me immensingly! In addition, my baby was having bad running nose with tears and mucus streaming continuously down her face. She had so much trouble sleeping at nights and screamed her little head off the entire first few nights to protest when we needed rest so badly. Thank God that my dad was there and he woke up many times in the wee hours as well just to accompany me and tried cuddling her fussy grand-daughter while i catch my sleep.
But thank God that the chicken pox did not affect my eldest as much cos the weather there was dry and cooling. She was still having so much fun with my niece and we just had to keep fingers cross that my pumpkin will not contract chicken pox as well. Praise the Lord that her chicken pox "ordeal" only lasted about 3/4 days and we started our real "Hoilday" finally. We had our intensive tour and starting touring malls, farm, wildlife park, beach.....during our final week!!!!
It was heartwarming to finally meet up with my brother and his family. We missed them dearly as we had not seen them since we left for Shanghai almost 4 years ago. So this trip was very emotional at least for me....... I missed my brother, sister-in-law cum friend, and niece and warms my heart to see her grown up to be such a fine considerate and beautiful preschooler!!!
Next, my sister in law found this book "your relationship can survive a newborn" which I guess begins my recovery process from my impending pre cum post natal depression. I just got to believe I CAN DO IT despite that my 10 month old baby still wakes us at 12 a.m, 3 a.m and 5 a.m. I am extremely exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally. I'm still up several times during each night, if not more, and my dear baby girl cannot fall asleep without me...... Can I survive another newborn in 4 months time?????? Somehow I just have to take ONE DAY AT A TIME now and find solutions to solve my sleep deprivation and get a full time domestic helper! I NEED SANITY!!!!!!!
will try to put the aust's pics ASAP......
Can u imagine my eldest daughter actually contracted chicken pox just the second day when we arrived Aust. My stress level was escalating especially when my 9 mths old mth pumpkin wasn't vaccinated and I am currently pregnant. I remember vividly from my childlife internship in Canada how a poor baby suffered and abandoned in the hospital with almost all her major systems down just bec her mummy had chicken pox during pregnancy. That thought scared me immensingly! In addition, my baby was having bad running nose with tears and mucus streaming continuously down her face. She had so much trouble sleeping at nights and screamed her little head off the entire first few nights to protest when we needed rest so badly. Thank God that my dad was there and he woke up many times in the wee hours as well just to accompany me and tried cuddling her fussy grand-daughter while i catch my sleep.
But thank God that the chicken pox did not affect my eldest as much cos the weather there was dry and cooling. She was still having so much fun with my niece and we just had to keep fingers cross that my pumpkin will not contract chicken pox as well. Praise the Lord that her chicken pox "ordeal" only lasted about 3/4 days and we started our real "Hoilday" finally. We had our intensive tour and starting touring malls, farm, wildlife park, beach.....during our final week!!!!
It was heartwarming to finally meet up with my brother and his family. We missed them dearly as we had not seen them since we left for Shanghai almost 4 years ago. So this trip was very emotional at least for me....... I missed my brother, sister-in-law cum friend, and niece and warms my heart to see her grown up to be such a fine considerate and beautiful preschooler!!!
Next, my sister in law found this book "your relationship can survive a newborn" which I guess begins my recovery process from my impending pre cum post natal depression. I just got to believe I CAN DO IT despite that my 10 month old baby still wakes us at 12 a.m, 3 a.m and 5 a.m. I am extremely exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally. I'm still up several times during each night, if not more, and my dear baby girl cannot fall asleep without me...... Can I survive another newborn in 4 months time?????? Somehow I just have to take ONE DAY AT A TIME now and find solutions to solve my sleep deprivation and get a full time domestic helper! I NEED SANITY!!!!!!!
will try to put the aust's pics ASAP......
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Have u ever felt like a lousy mummy????
Have u ever felt like a lousy mummy???? I have this provoking thought many times and always questioned myself about my choice of staying home to take care of my children. However, I know deep down in my heart that I need to invest in their formative years, especially the first five years and I can work as long as I like till I drop......when they are schooling. My education and training in Child Development have strongly affirmed my belief that children need attentive caregivers to provide their NOT only their physical but emotional, cognitive and social needs. Yet....I felt so inadequate now. I feel so drained, I felt so unaccomplished, so tired, so helpless.....my body's hormones and changes are making me worse. I can't it....
I know I can OVERCOME! BUT how???? I used to give myself my so-called self-declared deserved time-outs like my favourite coffee club breakfast....suddenly, it doesn't help anymore. It seems lonely and sad affair that interestingly people think u are having a great time, like tai tai..... ya ya....I wish I have somebody to talk to..
Motherhood seems so easy for some, yet so insurmountable for me. I feel so useless for not able to take all these care giving and house chores. I know my battery is running low now and my emotions are fluctuating like roller coaster. I know I have to do something about myself.......
Meanwhile pray for me that I will stand up strong again for my kids!
cheers meiling
I know I can OVERCOME! BUT how???? I used to give myself my so-called self-declared deserved time-outs like my favourite coffee club breakfast....suddenly, it doesn't help anymore. It seems lonely and sad affair that interestingly people think u are having a great time, like tai tai..... ya ya....I wish I have somebody to talk to..
Motherhood seems so easy for some, yet so insurmountable for me. I feel so useless for not able to take all these care giving and house chores. I know my battery is running low now and my emotions are fluctuating like roller coaster. I know I have to do something about myself.......
Meanwhile pray for me that I will stand up strong again for my kids!
cheers meiling
Monday, February 18, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Sisterhood
There is one thing that really warms my heart so much recently. That VERY thing is simply to see my two gorgeous daughters loving one another. My baby girl simply adores her elder sister and her eyes literally sparkle when she hears and sees her beloved jie jie. In fact, her hands and legs will be kicking so vigorously that I often thought I might drop her! And as for the eldest girl, she always tries her best to make her baby sister laugh by playing peek a boo nonstop and picking up her toys! We went Tokyo recently and jie jie missed her mei mei just the very first day!
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