My Choice

I believe it is a freewill decision, a conscious choice for me to be either a homemaker or a career woman. I have chosen willingly to be a HOMEMAKER and I believe it is right choice for me at this moment, this season.

Yes, I remember a vivid image of a stylish MODERN mummy who drove a BMW convertible came to fetch her preschooler. How I envied her , I wanted to be like her..... BUT when I first became a MUM many years ago, these were the QUESTIONS that I ask myself "Do I want to take a risk to see how my children grow up without a nurturing figure during their formative years?" Can I pursue my dreams, my purchasing power, my status in the expense of my children's psychological well being during their growing up years? Who would be there to encourage or comfort my hurting, scared child if I'm I busy at work? Can I REALLY balance my work and family life well? I doubt so.... really doubt it. Maybe I can return to the workforce when they are more physically and psychologically more independent. I tell myself repeatedly that there is a TIME for everything. A critical time for nurturing and meet their heartfellt needs during formative years, and a time to let go gradually during their school age years.

I thank God that my husband is able to provide for our "big" family of five. It is not easy for him, but He does it really well!!! I always joked that he needs to work hard to buy 4 types of milk powder for his children!!! Not only did he provides bacon for this family, he also adores his children and makes time for all of us individually. Most importantly, he also helps me alot in adapting this homemaker role. I struggled with this role so much and he takes effort to convince me to believe in myself, my worthy role. He always affirms my role and helps out when he comes back from work. The truth is I also feel extremely satisfied to assist him to climb up his career ladder while I make sure that his home base is doing fine.....

Yes, we could do so much more if I were to work and chip in financially. We can have more in material sense, more luxurious holidays, more expensive dining, more branded clothes, shoes, bags, whatever... NOW, We just have to assess our NEEDS and WANTS all the time, to cut down on lustful DESIRES. BUT are we going to have more family time, more laughter, more bonding time as a family when both are working in the corporate world?

Indeed a homemaker job isn't easy, this is a MUNDANE and exhausting job 24/7/365 with no pay, no leave, no appraisal, no compensation and benefit, no OVERSEAS conference, no lunch or teabreak, no status, no socialisation, but the intangible BENEFITS are very memorable and fulfilling in the long run. A job or INVESTMENT that most mummies never regret because you see them grow up literally before your eyes and a strong bond is cultivated literally day by day. I know my children just love having mummy around and to help them to face this harsh world confidently in a gradual way. Now is the time for me to instil in my young children positive attitude in believing in themselves and teach them to have positive mindset when they feel overwhelmed emotionally or socially. I want to equip them LIFE SKILLS that help them to excel and reach their greatest God given potential and lead a meaningful, well-adjusted responsible life in the long run! BUT all these need heaps of patience, love, endurance, wisdom and even joy.....so LORD, please do GRANT me all that I need to be a GODLY MUMMY!