Happy Birthday Princess Venecia

My dearest Princess Venecia,

You are mummy's pumpkin pie, peanut and everything in the world. I never ever thought mummyhood is so difficult till I meet you, my dear feisty, witty and "whiny" girl. I Believe God has given me you for a GREAT purpose, to mould mummy more like JESUS . I fall short in so many ways, and it is You who challenged mummy's patience, love, perseverance and faith in GOD to heal u divinely. So much about 1 Corinthians abt love is patience, love is kind... always hopes, always perseveres.

My dear princess, I pray that God's love will engulf you and protect you from all harm. Your mysterious interrupted sleep troubles mummy alot and I realised I'm so helpless and vulnerable to stress that I need GOD desperately. I cannot be with you all the time and I can't see with my naked eyes what is actually going on.....yes, I whined why why? BUT I can trust in HIM that he will your refuge and fortress, and His peace to be with you where ever you go.

Though Mummy's heart ached so much when U when thru your endoscopy and surgery recently, I trust that God's divine protection is with you, especially during your everyday sleep. You will have sweet sleep every night and wake up refreshed, rejuvenated and refreshed, so may your parents and neighbours!!! May you grow in Stature and be courageous to follow God and in your beliefs. May God's presence be so strong in your preschool years that you will shine for HIM!! I know you will, my SUNSHINE!!!!

lots of love, your mummy!

Sentosa

Some memories cannot be erased......

We went to Sentosa at least 4 times this month!!! I brought my kids there by myself recently and I muz admit it was quite frustrating and weary at times when my kids do not CONSCIOUSLY cooperate !!! BUT I repeatedly told myself that the outings were meant to be fun, spontaneous and whatever it will be........ I relaxed and just enjoyed being with them and tried not to fuss over the extreme heat, or the sand over my mat and bag or their exemplary behaviour, or didi's constant yelling or even meimei clinging to me!!!!!

I was determined not to let my fussiness, my escalating anger, brimming impatience or my unrealistic expectations ruined this "history" that we had created together!!!! At the end of the day, I was exhausted cleaning up the kids, listening to their everlasting whinnings, chasing after them, coaxing them to eat and still had to drag them home. AT that moment, I wished , a fairy God-mother could just instantly flag her magic wand and send us home IMMEDIATELY!!

BUT I was reallly satisfied when I see how they enjoyed the trip despite of whatever hiccups happened. I realised there is NOooo perfect outing, but a right attitude and cheerful mindset. We still CAN have splendid and AWESOME time together. I asked Valerie whether she enjoyed the trips to Sentosa, she exclaimed "SSSSSSplendid!!!" So what more do I ask..........a captured memory for my children, my precious, my pride and joy (whatever included in the package).

Mcdonald breakfast

A family that eats together stays together.....My parents insisted our family to eat together every weekends since we were very young and I believe this purposeful weekly gatherings weaved a strong bonding among my siblings.

Now, I hope that my nuclear family will continue this good habit of eating together. Mcdonald breakfast offers this drained mummy a break and yet creates fond memories for us when we eat together. Hence, this "Mcdonald tradition" will go on for quite some time......

Future Fashion designer Valerie

My dear Valerie has been quite creative lately. I gave her a blue cloth while I used the rest to sew her a bag. Then she decided to make a cardigan for her sister. Using her own imagination, she cut two arm holes and sew a button on. I muz say I was quite impressed to see such great ART PIECE. So to boost her morale, I helped her to sew some laces on as well as the little rabbit ornament. WOW, it was actually quite pretty!!! Most importantly, it was fun to help her to use her creativity. She was so proud of it that she decided to own it instead!

Nostagic shoes

I'm keeping these favourite shoes..... each pair brings me very fond memories ..places where they had walked and run. A reminder that I need to treasure every moment, even when they are stamping their little feet whinning !!!

Hang In There, exhausted mummy

These childrearing exhausting days will pass and I will miss them. Many mummies have regretted not enjoying their children moment by moment. So I told myself repeatedly that this crucial period will be the BEST DAYS of my life and I can never turn back the clock if I miss this boat. YES, it may be exhausting, but I still want to learn to enjoy my three dearest children and ENJOY EVERYDAY! I want to create pleasant memories for my family , which are far better gift than anything I can buy. I remind myself not to be a SUPERMUM, and be kind to myself and discard unrealistic expectations. I learn to take one thing at a time, one day at a time and enjoy each day as much as I can. Todays' happenings become tomorrow's history. SO what kind of history I can "create" depends on how I react today........ STAY CHEERFUL and PRAYERFUL!!!

" A cheerful heart is a good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bone." proverb 17:22

My Precious Venecia

I'm actually very weary and physically drained after so many espisodes of fighting Venecia's cold bugs and enduring interrupted sleep due to her night terrors...... Venecia's sinusitis is not getting any better. She just finished her 10th course of antibotic today and NOW she is down with runny nose and teary eye again. She had high fever of 39.4 degree during her last bout of cold. I guess this is her last straw and she probably needs a surgery to drain the mucus out so that her sinusitis vicious cycle will be "eradicated" completely

My greatest worry is she is so petite and going through a GA has some risks. I'm afraid....... maybe I had miscarrages and letting her to go thru' this minor surgery scares me a GREAT deal. She has been so traumatised lately with all the medical procedures, MRI and nasal endoscopies..... to see this tiny body struggles and hear her wailing break my heart so much. YET this helpless mummy can't do anything to alleviate her immense fear and pain. Somehow I can't hold it anymore.... I'm not that strong mentally to support her...... please pray for my girl.

I know my GOD will carry me thru this ordeal.

"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." (1 Corinthians 13:7 NLT) Love NEVER gives up