My dearest kiddos

My dearest children, I pray that all of you will love life and live it to the fullest! You have seeds of greatness inside you! Give people benefit of doubt and always see the best in others. We are made bigger than keeping scores and being petty over trivial matters. Have a big heart and be generous. Live with enthusiasm, grin during good times, smile even more when things are rough , you will get through it faster with that positive attitude. Soar , run , walk or amble, life is about exploring, embracing the imperfection, experiencing growth and enjoying. It may not be perfect and beautiful all the time, but life has so much to offer if u have a positive attitude and expect good things! Life has many inconveniences and things may not come our way most of the time, but if u can keep a good attitude, shake off the bad feelings and put a smile on your face, you will see God has something great prepared for u. Enjoy the journey itself. Do not dwell on what's wrong, and be grateful for what you have. Keep this song of happiness in your heart always and make up your mind to be joyful despite of the circumstances. Your smile will spread joy all around you. And your mummy is one of the blessed recipient! Your smiles make me so rich! Agape love , mummy July 2013

Photography

Photography teaches you to see things from different angles. To appreciate finer things in life. To see and transform your life through the lens of your heart, to appreciate the beauty of God's creation , be it nature or men. Every hues and textures, every emotions and actions shows the true beauty of Life itself. Photography teaches u the pace of life, to slow down, to smell the flowers , to listen to the symphony of laughter and to enjoy the process; and to capture these beauty forever and to document your history, and lastly to sharpen your creativity. As you shoot, u will learn more about yourself, your surrounding, your world and see life in a more positive, humane and exciting way!!

Princess Venecia

My dear princess, mummy heart has ached so much for u since u arrived 6 years ago. Do u remember those late nights when u cried incessantly for hours and how mummy was simply helpless with your unrelenting yells. Mummy could only fall to my knees in anguish and prayed for God's strength, love and healing. You have taught me so much about faith and how stretching parenting journey can be. My heart sank when the doc ordered for chromosome test the last check up in May. I'm terrified to go through all the medical procedures with you even though your mum supposed to know all the childlife skills. I was terrified, I was lost, I was heartbroken, I was defeated. Again, only His Grace and Favor got us through this ordeal. My princess, you will grow in wisdom and stature. Stand tall in your faith and soar like an eagle! You are born for such a time as this!!! Happy blessed birthday and stay so happy always!

God answered my prayer in an interesting way

God had something in mind for this mummy this year, 2011 I prayed for strength,joy and confidence to handle my three kids early this year. God indeed heard my prayer and had created plenty opportunities for this stretched mummy to learn such a task. God sent my dear hubby away for business trips. So I was left ALONE to handle it all. There were times that I just wanted to thow a white towel and surrender it all these highly energised kiddos. God is indeed faithful and WiSE. There is no better way to learn how to cope confidently when no one is there to help.....

Interestingly, it was this period that I introduced to them lots of christian songs and bible stories. I'm so proud of Venecia when she pretended playing the ukelele and sang many christain songs. I prayed that these songs will always be deep down in their hearts like seedings sprouting their childlike faith. I know I become a stronger mum after many episodes of handling it all. I learn to enjoy my kiddos more and learn to relax over matters that I used to get mad with.

Indeed it is My life My story

I read this somewhere and it spoke to my heart. Indeed it is MY life, My story. I need to learn from this mummy!

"Today I am learning to embrace the life God has planned for me. Yes, I have moments where I wish, and I compare. But then I take a moment to step back and look where God has me right now. Right now I am a homeschooling mom of three who writes in her “spare” time. Would I love to speak and go on fancy business trips? Sure, that is what my flesh desires! But my heart desires God’s will for my life and right now it is His call for me to be right here."

God help me to believe in myself and this choice that I have made, to be a stayhome mum for this season. Thank u so much for teaching me to make time to create beautiful memories intentionally. I learn to embrace this awesome season of my life now!!! I don't want to live in regrets and I want to live my life victoriously and statisfed with my own progress and goals achieved. No story will ever be the same...,. I don't need to compare because we are all different and unique!

Spending one to one time with Princess Venecia

I was kind of 'forced' to stay home with my second daughter recently. This intensive one week with Princess Venecia was actually quite fun and has indeed taught me to be more patient with her ability to overcome fear. One incident that striked me significantly was at IMM playgound. I was bored after spending 20 minutes watching her. She refused to try the higher slide despite of my coaxing. I wanted to leave after seeing all the younder children seem to be more adventurous. Suddenly she just ventured into the higher grounds just like that! I would have missed this if I insisted leaving and denied her the opportunity to overcome her fear. Later after that incident, we went to Daiso for lesiure shopping. As usual, I encouraged her to pay for her item and surprsingly, she did it with obvious brimming pride!

WOW!!! I'm so proud of her, yes it may seems so insignificant in many mummies eyes, BUT this mummy is so PROUD OF HER ACHIEVEMENT!!! This period of bonding defintely pays off, I see a more confident and cheerful PRINCESS ready to venture out of her comfort zone!

Hang in there.... Mummy

I have been trying to stay above the water lately...... Sometimes I can't help it but feel this constant pull by my circumstances. I can't keep my head above the water level. HELP!!!! Every part of me wants to quit!!!! This homemaker job is getting ever more challenging, more mundane than ever and less appreciated. I doubt I have much motivation except my faith that keeps me going. Many friends, cousins and relatives never expect this rambutious, extrovert and Career minded Meiling would ended up a homemaker. I played soccer, hockey, basketball anything that has sun around.... I'm there. I'm famous for not staying at home especially during my holidays.... Now I'm stucked at home most of the time, talking to children day in and day out. Adult and intellectually stimulating conversation is rare now.

During my school days, i studied really hard for my grades to enter university, especially in a private school. Then I worked hard for my distinictions during my Bsc and postgraduate so that I could get a good job.... Hee hee but I ended a job that requires no resume but requires someone with high EQ, tons of patience, love, organizational and culinary skills, and delayed gratification. I muz admit that I run super low in all these qualities! I don't have a degree in homemaking!!! How do I excel in this????? I'm not a meticulous person but someone very vivacious and outdoor. I love the sun, I love to meet people, I love to talk, I love to buy my own things...... This homemaking job does not fit me at all......


There is a season for eveything. I know this is the wisest choice for me NOW!!!! I'm willing to learn, to juggle with this complicated role that requires multiple skills. I'm improving my cooking skills... I'm learning how to be a tutor, a taxi driver that is on time, a domestic cleaner that is more meticulous, a grocery shopper that knows where to get the cheap and fresh food......,I know I can!!! I need to keep on trying n never give up. My feelings tell me otherwise at times but I'm trying my best not to be controlled by my feelings.. My God is a big God, He is
teaching me something here......My lord...... Give me the stength to hang in there!Change my mindset about being overwhelmed by 3 children.