Motherhood is so tough .....

I feel so tired esp when I dun get help. I'm Very exhausted with three wanting attention all the time. I feel very envious over mummies who have parents or in laws helping. Then they accused me for not letting go... and arguing that I'm guarding my time with my family.  I can't put my children anywhere by themselves so that I can have my coffee break or spa!  Tell me how to do it when u can't force people like your parents or in laws , the ones closest to you to help. It is not their obligation. And I have no right to do that ......

 It was only my dear babysitter,  who came along that Yc n I could be alone for three hours fortnightly....  Nobody knows my sheer exhaustion, my pain, my worries, but only our dear Lord. So I get so discouraged ... Lately when I can't help ven to put on weight.  I thought I fought a good fight the past 7 years.... Now this battle is defeating me...lord, rise up within me!