To excel in what I do

I always want to excel in what I do, be it in school days,  uni days, working days or now in my homemaking days. I told myself that I want to be the BEST that I CAN be, not to be like anybody else. This is my race and I want to DO my very best as a mother,  wife , daughter and friend.  BUT I have to constantly remind myself that my best may not be another mummy's best.  I don't want to set myself up to unhealthy unrealistic comparison. Only my best matters to my Heavenly Father. He will give me whatever I need to be better. At least i know my cooking skills have improve! lol 

I want to build my home well, knowing my children are growing well spiritually, physically and emotionally.   Yet, I want to enjoy my mundane aspects of my work. SO I pray fervently over this issue for years and I see a great transformation in myself. I used to be so extrovert and I can't stay home. Ask anyone who knows me since school days, they can testify that! God has challenged me to stay home. I know I can't do it on my own. He has given me the wisdom, the creativity and joy just being with my awesome kids and my wonderful husband. 

I always wonder it is worth it not to pursue my 'dream' career. I always pondered: "Maybe I can balance work and home well. " But I know for my own race at this season, they really need me. I struggled, I argued with GOD, I begged Him for strength and wisdom, I cried in desperation. 

He is so good to me! He knows me in and out, my strengths, my weaknesses, my everything .  He carried me thru all my trials, my doubts, my procrastination. He is so patient with my learning journey.  

Yesterday, Val told me she got full marks for her Math exams! She was so thrilled and I was overwhelmed with thanksgiving! I still remembered I uttered a prayer under my breath that Lord will help us through this revision cos I was overwhelmed!!  Val has been pretty careless in her math... History shows that. But she prayed  for this 'deliverance ' and I'm thankful that she sees this episode as a 'miracle' in her life! A story, a living testimony for her to remember our Heavenly Father is indeed faithful, all loving and generous! I certainly hope she learns that simple faith is what she needs in all things. 

I thank God that this episode and it has reaffirmed my choice to stay home for this season of my life, to establish my home and raise my children to love God and serve others. I'm feeling the great fulfillment and satisfaction and I know I will excel in everything I do that I can be a blessing to my family and others! And I know He is not finished with me yet!