Share my joy!

Share my JOY!!!!!  She scored 86!!!  Just one day before her math exams, it was confirmed by the Psychologist that she has dyscalculia, a learning disability for math. I was devastated , so discouraged, so helpless. 

But thank God that all her hard work for this one whole year pays off!!! She has been very diligent and this results really encouraged her so much!!! I can see a sparkle in her eyes!!! Praise the Lord!!!!!

Reign over stress

So many times I just lose it, the whining, the complaining and poor attitude usually trigger my button. It brews a very toxic mixture inside me and suddenly it will just explode on an autopilot frantic reaction: ugly yelling, regrettable words that stab and escalating anger stares . 

Then I will be so overwhelmed with guilt and sadness after each episode and feel extremely defeated.  I will be very angry with myself for losing it again as I thought I promise myself each day, I will have better self control and patience.... 

So today, I'm frighten to start afresh, and praying fervently  that the short half time break will jump start and put me on another fresh new page. I hate that vicious cycle. I want to start with the positive and affirming footing. Lord, only u can help me to be kind and mirror the right attitude and peace in this chaotic world of pressure. I trust that I will be led by the spirit and be changed divinely.  Pray for me! 🙏🏻

Love one another !

U kiddos do grow up very fast!! Mummy is super thankful and grateful for all the core memories we have intentionally created over the years. Hope those heartfelt touching memories will remind all of you our beautiful yet imperfect family. We do fight, but we will make it up all the time! Please Dun ever let small insignificant matter break this fragile yet strong bond that we try so hard to build over the years!

My dear awesome babies, my life is so rich because of your presence! I will never ever exchange u guys for anything in this world! I LOVE all of u so much! ❤️❤️❤️ Continue to love and be there for one another!!! Seek God first and all these things shall be added onto u!

Gentle and quiet spirit

Yes I may have more wrinkles, more pigmentations, more eye bags , more pimples , but I still love this pic that has no makeup. I'm seeking for a deeper beauty, a stillness and strength that can overcome and triumph, the joy that bubbles despite of circumstances, the glow that radiates from within. Lord, I know it comes from u!  Grant me this gentle and quiet spirit.

Relax lah

A letter written to my three kids in 2013

My dearest children, I pray that all of you will love life and live it to the fullest! You have seeds of greatness inside you!  Give people benefit of doubt and always see the best in others. We are made bigger than keeping scores and being petty over trivial matters.  Have a big heart and be generous.  Live with enthusiasm, grin during good times, smile even more when things are rough, you will get through it faster with that positive attitude. 

My dear children soar, run, walk or amble,  life is about exploring, embracing the imperfection, experiencing growth and enjoying. It may not be perfect and beautiful all the time, but life has so much to offer if u have a positive attitude and expect good things! 

Life has many inconveniences and things may not come our way most of the time, but if u can keep a good attitude, shake off the bad feelings and put a smile on your face, you will see God has something great prepared for u in the midst of that arduous period. Enjoy the journey itself.  Do not dwell on what's wrong, and be grateful for what you have.  Keep this song of happiness in your heart always and make up your mind to be joyful despite of the circumstances.  Your smile will spread joy to all around you. And your mummy is one of the very blessed recipient! Your smiles make me feel so rich! 

Agape love, mummy

2013

U can do it really well, my princess!

Baby! I love u so much!!! U know what! I have so much faith in u!! U have been such a sweet sensible firstborn and I can't thank God enough for u.  U are made by Him for a great purpose and I see that the very first day I saw u! U will do SO well in life and I know it deep down in my heart. It hurts me when I see u doubting your capability sweetie!!!

God has equipped u more than what PSLE wants!  This is such a small hurdle. Trust mum, this is nothing and u are meant for BIGGER things !!! I love u so much and I believe in you baby!!!! We will run this race together and u will see how easy this small race is !!! Let us not get intimidated !! 

WE will go thru' this small jump in triumph and meanwhile DO smile so radiantly ever !!! It blesses others so much , and much more than you ever think! Much more precious !!! Dun ever give up HOPE!!! 

Luv you ever more !!

Mummy 

2015